These past few days i tried to alienate myself with people as i tried to reflect on my life. Deep inside of me is the burning flame of anger with a particular member in my family. As usual , it involves money issues.
Last Monday grandmother reminded me about the unsettled payment for the carpenter. Honestly, i forgot and was not able to prepare the amount due for him (carpenter). Then came the litany of my grandmother - - - as always she will remind us whoever she attacks that her money was all lost because of us and now that we have the money of our own we will not give her... This will irritates me. I don't want to be reminded of those things because i am always thinking of paying back to her. It was just that I forgot and i need some consideration.
Actually, I am on tight budget nowadays. It is just all enough to pay for my monthly boardinghouse rentals, insurance plans, house improvement loan, decent meals and everyday transportation allowance. Leisure such as movie watching and out of town trips are of least priority this time. I would rather buy DVDs and watch at home.
It is sad to note that I have no more extra budget for salon. My hair have many split ends already and is very dull. But I understand as there are some alternatives for hair treatment. I can go with coco milk treatment or aloe vera for that. However the basic needs are more important.
A seminar invitation on November 17 & 18 was received earlier but up to now i still couldn't make up my mind if i will attend due to financial constraints. I have the desire to attend because it is essential to enhance my knowledge in my profession. My officemates are willing to lend me the required amount but I am hesitant because I am not so sure if I can pay for it afterwards.
If my grandmother would only know my current financial situation, I hope she will understand. Anyway, I have no intention of airing this to her for I know that she will not listen to my excuses as she may call it.
I know I will be better after sometime. I just needed a space and the air to breathe in . Life is sometimes like this and that is what makes it worth living. If we know how to maneuver it then we will survive the petty challenges as we live life every day.
Last Monday grandmother reminded me about the unsettled payment for the carpenter. Honestly, i forgot and was not able to prepare the amount due for him (carpenter). Then came the litany of my grandmother - - - as always she will remind us whoever she attacks that her money was all lost because of us and now that we have the money of our own we will not give her... This will irritates me. I don't want to be reminded of those things because i am always thinking of paying back to her. It was just that I forgot and i need some consideration.
Actually, I am on tight budget nowadays. It is just all enough to pay for my monthly boardinghouse rentals, insurance plans, house improvement loan, decent meals and everyday transportation allowance. Leisure such as movie watching and out of town trips are of least priority this time. I would rather buy DVDs and watch at home.
It is sad to note that I have no more extra budget for salon. My hair have many split ends already and is very dull. But I understand as there are some alternatives for hair treatment. I can go with coco milk treatment or aloe vera for that. However the basic needs are more important.
A seminar invitation on November 17 & 18 was received earlier but up to now i still couldn't make up my mind if i will attend due to financial constraints. I have the desire to attend because it is essential to enhance my knowledge in my profession. My officemates are willing to lend me the required amount but I am hesitant because I am not so sure if I can pay for it afterwards.
If my grandmother would only know my current financial situation, I hope she will understand. Anyway, I have no intention of airing this to her for I know that she will not listen to my excuses as she may call it.
I know I will be better after sometime. I just needed a space and the air to breathe in . Life is sometimes like this and that is what makes it worth living. If we know how to maneuver it then we will survive the petty challenges as we live life every day.
